And the results are

NOT in.  I got a little distracted and then went on a trip and in the end, I proved that eating unhealthy makes me feel not so great all the time but that it is SO easy to not eat healthy healthy per se.  Ok, really, all that means is is that I was lame and wandered from the path but I am back and ready to GO!!

Yay me, more later

Barely a week

So I was doing the whole exercise thing, I am, right, but the thing that gets to me is the minimum exertion.  So here is the thing about exercise and when you haven't and I am not sure if the trainers and all those people remember this.  Hi, this is a little hard.  Run at 70strides per minute, crap I can barely do the 45.  I try but how many people out there are with me in the hi when you start here (((()))) and the whole sweat thing is like shit to get to this () is going to be a pain in the ass. 

I suppose I can go find someone who is also blogging and stuff and maybe this crawling towards the goal and I will find commiseration in the agony.

Right isn't that the point of the online communities, Hi I don't want to work out today, oh yeah you can do it.  I mean hardly, sometimes I want to lay down and just READ.  Oh yeah right.

I had a whole bunch of other rants but mostly it was that.  The exercise thing, like WTF, crawling towards this goal.  I am wondering whether or not this whole diabetes thing is providing a little bit of a challenge.  The reason being in the past, and perhaps you can join me here, is the eat healthy a little exercise and then bam, hi, weight melts off.  I guess all those fat fuck bastards who blah blah blah health, blah blah blah age, blah blah motherfucking blah diabetes.  Tedious and mundane is this whole thing.




Also, I know there are articles and I will be checking them out.  Tomorrow, big day, let's see if the one diet produced any results.  I have some Apple apps I am using, but don't want to mention them since I use some and then delete them.  All good efforts, good effort peoples.  Do any fat people trying to lose weight develop these?

Let's talk about the crawl

And by the crawl I mean that thing that occurs when the alarm clock goes off in the morning and I know more than anything I need more sleep but instead I promised I would work out.
Here is the truth about the working out vs the sleeping vs the staying up late and doing whatever it is I do.   In stack ranking of top 3, 1 is staying up late, 2 is sleeping, 3 is working out.  I am getting better, and I am wondering, without the benefit of the whole googling the internet (love how that is a verb now) on whether or not the struggle with dropping weight this time is because of the diabetes, the age, or my body basically saying piss off bish, I am about done with this shit.

I am holding steady at the 215 but in fairness, I am also 'retaining' water which is just a nice way of saying well, you know.  Since I was speaking of working out, maybe for grins and tears I should add up how much  money I have spent on the exercise videos, equipment and etc etc crap that litter my place and then chalk the statistic up to the crap I should be thin for that amount.

PS: waiting for the omg I feel so fucking amazing since I have been eating healthy rush

Revamped and revised

LOL I am kidding ;-) Ok so this week we are trying a menu plan from EODD and upping the cardio.  BTW does cardio stand for OMFG I am about to have a heart attack.
So yeah, trying the cardio 3x a week and upping the strength training and seeing what happens.  What more am I talking about?  Who knows? I discovered I am not fond of people, so how is this supposed to work?  They say you do better at this with talking to people and working it out with them, but that does not appear to be the case.  Or does it?

Hanging out

Ok, so here is the random observation, when I was youmger, so not 40ish, I could start a program like this, oh wait, update, so I haven't started to compare the 2 things I mentioned.  Did you know you cannot get an unbiased report?  You get affiliate reports, which I find to be a little suspicious.  Like hey I will say how awesome this is and then be all buy it here.
Also, the tracking aspect, I am kind of stalled right now, and am wondering why.

Of the mice and cheeses

So as I got up this morning and tried to do my stretch band stuff, it occurred to me What a flipping pain in the ass!!!
So this is supposed to be more convenient than say free weights and the need for benches and all that.  Hi no, FAIL.  Wrap this shit around the door, sit on a chair (hi making me sit my ass on a chair vs a bench is not more convenient)
Ok so I get that it should like I just bitch about this, but I am REALLY trying to find what it is that can move my fat ass in a direction and share that with everyone because I think I am pretty indicative of most people who struggle with weight.  And listening to skinny people tell us to eat healthy and exercise more is not always helpful.

So, today's menu was a MEGA protein shake (tofu, greek yogurt, steel cut oatmeal, protein powder and blueberries* for breakfast
cukes/carrots and hummus for a snack and yogurt
live bread brocc sprouts, guac and sliced chicken breast.  (more veggie stuff on it but I am too lazy to find it and see)
Grapes and yogurt
Roasted chicken breast and salad mix

I figured out I was not eating enough calories so, trying to correct that.  Did I mention the showdown, next week though, I have to figure out the menus and corresponding workouts to give them all a fair shake