Two steps backwards 1 step forward

Cliche I know, but this has been a weird week and I am not sure why that is but there it is.  I have had some fluctuating emotions but other than that I am not sure what else I can pinpoint.
Let us summarize what I have assessed so far:
I can struggle to lose weight because I am going against
Body type
metabolism
Ayurvedic class

Did I miss anything? That seems like such a short list, I thought there were all kinds of other reasons why I struggled Oh yeah, because I am holding onto my fat or it is a safety net or I like it.  Maybe, we have all heard about comfort food and all that.

My weight loss is on track just slowed this week which I cannot explain.  I am at 215, so I am tracking slightly less this week than the 3+ pounds per week.

I gotta sat the eating healthy is not the hard part, the exercise is kicking my ass, I think if I could work out all day I might, but whenever I look up I see the day has gone.  I have so much exercise shit that I wish I could sleep in the middle of it and lose weight ;)

Ok, more later
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Oh yeah sorry, I made another plan too

To get to my goal weight from where I started, it will take approximately 24 weeks with a burn rate of 3.5 pounds per week.  Assuming I cannot maintain that, I have slotted at least 26 weeks for the target check point to see where I am at.
The good news is that this week, I have already surpassed the 3.5 and am at 4 pounds from week one to now.
So update is current weight is now 216 down 4 from 220, week 1.
Everyone do a lil cheer!! Cheer! Cheer.  Yeah whatever.

Did you think I forgot?

Noooo, just got all trapped in the boring mundane day to day things that get in all our ways.  Not like ya missed me or anything, I get that, since who knows who is reading this.  The problem I have with blogs is that they are so much noise out there.  I mean instead of a directed conversation it is like we have become a nation of disenfranchised who talk to ourselves and think we are sooo funny.  Neither here nor, there, but back before cell phones and all that, you could tell the homeless or possibly people who were on the fringe because they would walk down the street talking to themselves.  Nowadays, they look like the rest of us, talking on our cell phones, or blathering on the web about every mundane detail.  Blogs, tweeting and all this is just another way to pretend we matter.
Ok, that rant out of the way (and that is a half assed explanation of why this is not an everyday occurrence for me) let us talk about my weight.  The (pardon the comment) elephant in the room and also, about the size of my ass.  The reason for my weight is more emotional than I love junk food, all the trans fat and low this and that, I mean seriously, junk food is supposed to be unhealthy, duh.  So yeah, the junk food of today is missing all that inherent unhealthy yumness it had back when I was NOT overweight.  Irony, leave a message.
So, I read all the things, I am a good lil mega consumer (in more ways than one) in that I read the health magazines and the web sites and some other things and even the piece parts about the emo side of it.  So, am I more or less in touch with my emotions if I write them down here? Seems like a stretch to me but, ok.
Here is the thing that I cannot reconcile, I live in my mind, I love solving problems, and visual things and, well other stuff, so when I go to workout, I have to tell you, I am astonished when my body doesn't move or stretch the way I think it should.  I mean it, I am seriously stunned, like, huh...What is this?
Ok, I have to get to work, so I guess I am done for today:
This week's menu
Breakfast: Grapefruit and 1/2 cup cottage cheese OR Thomas's High Fiber English Muffin & Peanut Butter
(grapefruit is breakfast it is either or the other above)
Snacks: Grapes, Cheese, 1/4 c hummus, carrot chips, yogurt
Lunch: 2oz sliced Chicken breast, 2 slices ezekiel live bread, baby greens, radish and clover sprouts, tomatoe, 1 slice low fat swiss cheese (IE sandwich) Carrot chips and hummus might be with the sandwich and yogurt for the snack.  Oh and a salad with blackberry vinagerette.
Dinner: I haven't decided, this week I have some leftovers to get rid of, and before the nutrition fiends freak out, you should know in general my eating plan is mostly healthy (90% of the time) and then if I get some dim sum or have some noodles, the world doesn't end.  General guidelines are: lean protein, salad or some vegetable.
Ok, I think I will come back and write more maybe tomorrow.
Oh, exercise?
Yes, I am :)

Day 2 Who thnks Ho Hos should be a health food?

Just kidding, but sometimes, have you ever notice with you eat healthy and then have a lil junk food it doesn't taste as good as you remember?  Not that I cheated today, I did the healthy right thing, and truthfully, I feel better when I do this but every once in a while, I think, how bad could it be?  Then I take a bite and am all, what? that was not worth it.
So, that being said, there has to be a reason why it seems to taste so good.  Yeah if I made a zillion dollars to make that shit up, I would do that instead,
Today's meal was
Steel cut oatmeal and scrambled eggs for breakfast
string cheese, yogurt snack
2 homemade empanadas (yeah splruge whatever, Mom made them so)
Carrots and hummus - snacks
Spinach, egg brown rice scramble burrito.
Exercise, Yoga 30 minutes.

Day 1 because I can

Ok, so, in case you are wondering, I am not here to endorse or promote or sell supplements (say hello to the pyramid scams of the internet) so if you see any ads or click thru's on this blog, not mine.

Why am I here? Well, here is the thing, I have had a weight problem off and on most of my life, sometimes I can get way down and be all that and a bag of chips and other times, tie a basket to my legs and light the fire because I am ready to take flight.

So, I always said I would never be one of those people who would do this on the web, but then, it occurred to me, the things I hate about getting my shit together and being all responsible (because let's be honest, taking the time to act like an adult in food and exercise is being responsible as opposed to eating junk food and vegging out on the tv or video games all night) are the annoying complexities.

In a nutshell, here is what I noticed, to eat right takes preparation. Am I the only one who looks at the weekly menus and thinks wtf? Here is the first change I propose, breakfast is breakfast, same meal (or 2) every day of the week. Mix it up by week not by day, so you cookbooks and menu plans know who you are. Like I am going to make 21 meals and 14 different snacks to eat 3 meals and 2 snacks per day for the whole 7 days. I can make 1 item for breakfast, 1 to 2 items for lunch and dinner I might mix it up. You all with me so far? I get variety and all that, but come on, when you are not eating healthy, what are you eating? Bowl of Sugar pops? every morning right? Oh maybe you mix it up with some other breakfast cereal but come on.

Next, exercise, yeah I know everyone says you have to, and I want to, I really do, but I have a short attention span. So, here is what I am going to do, this may not work for everyone, but I am doing this on my laptop as I walk on my treadmill! SCORE ;) multitasking and working out. I stop when I hit cardio range and push myself but you get the jist.

I am here to share my progress, things that suck, things that work. Weightloss is a multi billion dollar a year industry and god knows I have contributed my fair share to that bottom line, so now, for all us fat chicks, let the adventure begin because I am on a mission!!

Oh yeah: Salient facts

Over 40

Female (hence the fat chick not fat guy)

Current weight 220 (down already from 239)

Target Weight 135

Pre-diabetic

Starting today

Diet is a combination of all the mad skill diet books on my bookshelf which omg hey all say the same thing (weird) of fresh fruits, vegetables, lean protein and whole grains. That was so hard!

Breakfast:

Thomas's High Fiber English Muffin - 100 cals

Egg white/egg omelet (I make a mix that is one container egg whites + 2 whole eggs that I use all week)

1 TB homemade guac (avos, tomatoes, onion + lime juice)

Snack: 1 apple

Lunch: Leftover vegetables and buckwheat noodles

Snack: 4 oz Carrots and 2 TB flax seed hummus

more later or until I lose interest

FCoaM